Adieu

I know it would hurt but i am sure we would find our peace

Time would heal all scars and mind would be at ease.

Out of sight is out of mind they say

I am going to find it in a better way

I have no complaints or regrets 

I am happy now as i don’t have to pretend.

You may think ,everything you did was justified

You may feel i am wrong and you are right

I agree to whatever lies you sleep on

I have no strength or desire to prove it wrong.

I have a deep desire, a small prayer

Never ever i feel this low again.

Cheers to the good times we had.

Hope and prayers for better futures apart

May we find all the happiness we crave

A sweet goodbye as we go our separate ways..

- john

Hold on to God

Hang in there my friend..just hold on ...ship is just passing through a heavy storm...Sea is rough and weather at its worse, All you have to do is  hold on ...
Your life may seem taken for a toss, In empty dark night as deeper you fall, life may seem to have no meaning, you might even feel being mocked by all..Trust me my friend this too shall pass and things be super calm...all you have to do is hold on..

God is there stretching wide his arm,to hold you tight as you struggle in this storm..He has his wings covered you all around.you don't have to worry a bit. All you have to do is hold on..

He has brought you through so many bigger storms .Blessed you with such a beautiful life then why are you scared of this small prob?? Why do you doubt his love for you? He has always been there just for you.

 I know storm is huge, thunders lightning all around, but trust, your almighty is mightier than all..what can a mere human or temporary situation do to his beloved one.. Have faith and trust , You are doing perfect my friend and soon it would end.All you have to do is hold on.

 - Dr. Lijo John

Saath

Dooriyan darmiyaan itni hai
Beetein waqt ka hisaab nahi
Zakhm puraane itne hai gehrayi ka pata nahi
Arsa beet gya Khul k saans liye
Dil se muskuraye kab wo bhi yaad nahi.
Par wo saath kahi hai itna yakeen hai..

Kabhi parchayi banke Toh kabhi ehsaas banke
Kabhi saanson me abr sa hai
Toh kabhi neend me khwaab sa hai...
Kabhi Aankho me ashk banke
Toh kabhi Ruh me Dard banke
Saath to hai wo itna yakeen hai..

Udaan

Dheeme se Udaan Bhari hai humne,
Manzil bhi bahut dur banayi hai,
Zindagi ki asli udaan abhi baaki hai
Zameen se bhale udaan bhari ho,
Abhi toh saara aasmaan baaki hai...

Zindagi ki kathinaiyo ne jeena sikhaya,
Har kadam pe thokar ne sambhalna sikhaya,
Zindagi ke kai imtehan abhi baaki hai,
Thodi Zameen Mili hai kadam rakhne,
Abhi toh Zameen hilaana baaki hai.

Sacchi ibaadat kabhi ansooni nahi jaati,
Mehnat kabhi bekaar nahi jaati,
Apni khwahishe abhi khud jaani hai,
Abhi toh khuda se saari duaye maangna baaki hai.

Bas abhi aankh kholi hai humne,
Saraa jahan dekhna baaki hai.
Abhi to naapi hai mutthi bhar zameen humne
Abhi toh saara aasmaan baaki hai...

wonder how lost am i????

Amidst this chaotic world,i wonder how lost am I?
Deep in thought i lie,staring the dark sky,
Thinking of not so distant world of mine.
the shimmering light of this moonlit night,
the cool breeze ,and the dark clouds with silver lines,
twinkling stars some dim some bright,
silence so calm yet so wild.
So many thoughts ,all at a time
And  here I lie wondering how lost am I??
Standing at a crossroad with no clue which way to go...
neither waiting for the right time or the right sign,
I am just silently praying my Lady Luck to shine.
Thoughts so naive making me feel weary,
yet I pacify myself thinking a new rhyme...
And simply wondering how lost am I ???

with love "someday"

In my loneliness i met my happiness...
i thought i had lost it all...
but you have given my heart a new song...
i know its temporary u may think...
but do u even know how long we may live?
You the last leaf of my autumn...
Your smile makes my spring blossom..
Your eyes so deep...tells evrything indeed...
You just scared of going through the pain...i know that too all again...
its true but just tell me what can i do...
i cannot see u sad..no more tears in ur eyes...
i wanna hold ur hand...take u to a distant land...
fill your life with happiness and peace...togethr we will make a masterpiece...
i know everything is an illusion a mirage my bful dream......
far far away silently i would pray...we be togethr...happy in love..someday

my valentine

i stared her eyes as she danced in my arms..she was staring mine and in silence v talked..
Music in th air...aroma of her hair..sparkle in her smile..
My oh my..it was all divine...

She rest her head on my chest & took a deep sigh...
...I filled her in my arms & felt alive...
Suddenly I felt her cold breath..
I lifted her chin & saw her eyes filled.
No words to define that beauty of her eyes...
I kissed the tear that ran by...
She cuddled in my arms..i hugged her tight..
Her heart raced & danced with mine....
Softly she spoke"will u b forever mine"???

I had never seen so much truth, in any eye...
I could not resist..& on her forehead i kissed....
I promise my love....till th end of my time....
U & only u...gonna be MY VALENTINE ;-))

my last GUDBYE

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                          my last Goodbye

I was never a player..but became the game…

I was played by all…and all I had was my pain..

Loser was I but had no regrets…I cried to self and wiped my tears…

All who played, left me in ruins…

Was lonely any weak but played mute..

Hatred I got wherever I went…

All I had… was you my love…

But today you too blame me for things not done

Didn’t  even ask for my word

Fine you do what you feel the best..

In almighty god my trust I rest

What I lost today you can never measure…

You were and will remain my life’s dearest treasure

once again i gave my best...pissing people off who really cared...

didn’t mean to but had to, as got no other option...

Can't see you hurt... can't see you cry... can't hold ur hand ….and say, i be always there by your side.....

i know you hurt...i know you cried...i know you cursed self all the while....

i take it on me and everything i decide...

i let u go off free to a better sky...

with tears in my eyes and an empty life....

all i have to say to you love is .....

my last Goodbye….

“Sapna tuta hai toh dil kabhi jalta hai”,

Sapna tuta hai toh dil kabhi jalta hai,

Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai…………

Jaanta hoon jo chaha hai wo mil nahi sakta

Haan umeed ka diya hai jo bujh nai sakta

Jo socha tha waisa ho toh nai sakta hai

Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai…………

Har lamha kat raha mushkil se

Dosti ho gayi tanhayi se

Umeedo ka kinara deh gya

Yaadon ka sahara reh gya

Yaar tera intezaar karte karte jab ye dil jalta hai

Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai…………

Tujhe kitna chahta hoon ye keh nai sakta

Koshish karke bhi jata nai sakta

Tum mere nai ho sakte,jab ye dil pata hai

Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai…………

“Sapna tuta hai toh dil kabhi jalta hai”,

kyun??????

har taraf sannata hai....har taraf hai lahoo baha...
har taraf padee hui jaane kitne nirdosho ki hai laash.....
har taraf hai aag jani....har taraf ghanghor dhuan........
har ghar me matam hai....jaane kitne behno ki ujdi maang....
aur na jaane kitne bachche hue anaath...


ye sab hai shaitan ki chaturai...samajh na raha bhai bhai....
satta me dhouns jamane ki ye chaal uske bahut kaam ayi....
kisne paya kisne khoya ye baat na saamne ayi....
dikh raha har taraf nafrat aur tere naam pe sab ne lahoo bahai...

der bahut hua mere ram  rahim...
phir se darshan  de jao......
kat rahe sab naam pe tere  unko tum aakar bachao....
anth na hai badle ki aag ka....jo tere naam pe hai lagai.....
kan kan main hain aap toh phir
mandir masjid kyu banwai??

tanha

lafzo ko aarzu thi zubaan se...

zubaan ko aarzu thi ek ehsaas se...

ehsaas ko aarzu thi ek khwab se...

khwab ko aarzu thi oonchi udaan se...

pankh kate the mere main ud na saka....

jo khwab thay oose mukaam na mila...

ehsas bas apne tak seemit reh gya...

zubaan lad khaday aur lafzo ko main dabata chala gya...

akhir tanha main reh gya...tanha main reh gya !!!

whenever i say gudbye

i gaze through the window but my mind thinks the moments spend with you...
I am leaving behind something close to my heart,lookin outside i calculate how far...
how i wish i could turn back the wheels...run back where i left you and hold you tight...
i have a dying urge to see you now ... but now..
i would have to just gaze out....
with tears in my eyes...i say goodbye...
to you..to this place and everything that crosses by....
just in a hope that we gonna meet tomorrow n everything gonna be just fine!!!!

some relations are like this..they are part of us...nothing can describe
We get so dependent.. that the moment we sense its not gonna be there..
there's a catastrophe in our mind....heart sinks and tears fill our eyes...
there's intense urge to cry out loud..to yell...but...what happens is just....
a calm silence and feeling of loneliness..that's evident in our eyes!!!

with luv to my mom

i hv a MOM who cried on my fall....
laughd her heart out whnvr i won,
walkd thru tough times all along.......
Sat beside me whn i needed a friend,
held my hand whn no1 cared,..........
fought th world for my survival n went thru all its odd trials...
she made me strong to face ths world,
whtvr i am..i owe it to her..........
she my friend my strength my philospher,
my guide my mentor my admirer........
she is my love my life my visible god
for u my mom... i dedicate my soul...
love u mom!!!

mirage

i walked through the  desert leaving behind a trail....
nature played its part of crushing me,again and. again....
i stumbled..i fell.. but i rose again....
i walked and walked to the horizon afar...
i knew its a mirage yet it ddnt dither my path...
i tread slowly but... steadily towards my immaculate dream.....
a lonely heart a lonely soul with a deep passion unknown...
a stranger, a wanderer ,m an optimist to the core...
wait o' mirage dont go so far...i be there please give me a chance...
i pause i smile and continue my path...
an endless journey towards whims of my heart.